Archive for December, 2015

Change of focus

Posted: December 31, 2015 in books


Its that time of year when resolutions come into play. I have only one and that is to focus on me. It sounds selfish but sometimes it’s necessary to do so. As a wife and a mother my life gets put on the back burner. It has always been about the kids, housework etc. My wants and needs are never met. All my effort goes into making sure everyone is happy and has what they need but lately, events have consumed me. I no longer care about me. My appearance, my writing even my self-worth. I have let everyone’s problems drag me down. They don’t want my help or input, leaving me stressed and feeling helpless. 2016 has to be a new start for me. I’ll still take care of the kids and daily chores but I will be making time for me. I need to break out of these binds and find myself again.



Posted: December 29, 2015 in books


A quote I’m embracing 😀

In the words of Elsa, “let it go”

Posted: December 29, 2015 in books


We all love our kids and want to do what’s best for them. If we see they are hurting, our instinct is to help but sometimes that isn’t appreciated. We’re labeled as interfering and told to mind our own business. It hurts but at the end of the day what can you do? As hard as it is, and I should know, you have to leave them to it. Even if your 100% positive that they are going to fall flat on their face you have to take a step back. Let them make their own mistakes and hope that they come out on the right side, if not, let them know you’re there for them. Despite knowing they are being dragged down it is hopeless trying to tell them, all you’re achieving is dragging yourself down. Life is about choices, failure and mistakes. We all have to experience it and learn from it and hope to become a better person in the end. I’ve finally come to the decision to let it go. What will be, will be 😀


Posted: December 22, 2015 in books


I find it hard to believe that someone would stay with a cheater. Yes you may love them or you’re doing it for the kids sake. Perhaps their descent into depression over what they have done is pulling on your heart strings. Stop! What the hell do you have to feel guilty about? They cheated on you, destroyed your life and probably your self-esteem. Who cares if everyone hates them and if you leave they will be on their own. This was their mistake if they loved you they wouldn’t have done it in the first place. You can’t keep sweeping things under the carpet. How will they ever learn from their mistakes if you continue to allow them to walk all over you? Did they give a second thought to how you would feel when they jumped into someone else’s bed? No. I don’t know about “once a cheater, always a cheater” I wouldn’t have given them a chance to find out. Neither would I have embraced the fact that everyone deserves a second chance.

Book review

Posted: December 21, 2015 in books


She wanted her life to change … he wanted his to stay the same.
Seventeen-year-old Ashlyn Lanski is tired of her boring, single life. Swimming and spending time with Tatiana, her best friend, are her only sanctuary. The girls plan to leave their drab lakeside town far behind for college, and Ash hopes to finally ditch her longtime crush for Finley, Tatiana’s twin brother. But when Tatiana and her family fail to return home after a family emergency, Ashlyn makes an irrational decision to deal with her loss of them.

Finley Helton and his family are good at blending in with humans as they run their sailing charter business in Lake Tahoe. The truth is they guard an ancient secret. When a not so routine meeting forces Finley, Tatiana and their mother to return to their underwater home of Natatoria, they learn Fin’s father will lead a dangerous mission. They must stay in Natatoria and wait for his return, but Fin can’t stay caged up for long.

Secrets lurk beneath the deep blue waters of Lake Tahoe, and a simple lifesaving kiss will change their lives forever.

This is not my usual paranormal preference but I found that I did enjoy this book and will be purchasing the next in the series, however there were a few disappointing parts. The random new found popularity for ash in school   was a bit confusing. As was the fact that the most sought after guy had conveniently broken up with the most popular girl and set his sights on ash. Maybe there is more to it in part two but it felt out of place for me. Also the end where ash finally learns about fin was a little too rushed and the way that she just accepted it all was a little on the unbelievable side, but overall a good read.


Four stars from me 😀

When your child becomes a stranger to you

Posted: December 17, 2015 in books


It’s hard when your child becomes a stranger to you. Their personality takes a 360 and the words that come out of their mouth, leave you stunned. You’ve no idea where all the bitterness and hate has come from, not so long ago they were eager to be in your company, laughing and joking without a care in the world. Their spite filled comments cut you to the core and yet you can’t turn off the love you feel for them. You can hate what they have become, even try to convince yourself that you’re better off without them but as each day passes, you die a little bit more inside. You yearn for the days when they looked up at you in adoration, you’ll even settle for the moody mornings when you’re dragging them out of bed for school. But this, this is heartbreak and there is no way to turn back the clock, all you can do is hope that they see the light and abandon the dreadful path they have chosen and return to your loving arms before it’s too late.

My mood today

Posted: December 16, 2015 in books